Emergency
by Abigail Lewis-Barned

Reflection

One patient I saw suffered from a bowel condition*. Previously, I had been under the impression that a disease like this impacted primarily on the practical and physical side of ones life and I was unaware of how widespread the effects on a patient's life could be.

The patient talked to us about his experience, and how through a series of complications, such as a blood clot during surgery, he was left with huge difficulties in walking which prevented him from continuing with his job and has prevented him working. This disease had completely changed his life; his social life had disintegrated, his health in other areas had deteriorated, he had suffered from depression and his family had been hugely affected. He was no longer able to act as provider for his family and his wife felt unable to return to work as she felt a duty to care for him. 

He explained to us how at several points he had contemplated suicide, he felt he had nothing to contribute and his future was bleak; several times he had "lined up the pills on the table". He told us that as he sat ready to take an overdose, he had seen his child's toy car on the table, which acted to remind him of the need his children had for him as a father and the fact that amongst all the difficulties in his life they were the one bright light, that gave him the will to continue.

To me, this photograph symbolises the fact that behind every 'disease' (i.e. the clinical condition and pathologies of the human body) there is an 'illness' (a patient's subjective experience of the disease). Though life may be full of struggles, every person needs hope and a reason to persevere and that strength is often found in people, not science. In this photograph I have used colour, or lack of it, to demonstrate this.

* details have been altered to maintain patient-confidentiiality

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Comments

Bethan

07 March 2011 - 22:12:12
"A very touching and powerful reminder of the precarious nature of mental health in chronic illness and the power of and need for emotional connections and responsibilities."

James Roberts

19 March 2012 - 11:25:01
"It really hit home, the importance of family for patients in tough situations. Proves the importance of recognizing the problem of mental health is one of great value."

Miles Triniman

19 December 2012 - 18:30:23
"The stark contrast between the colour of the car and the bleak and dreary foreground really stood out to me. I think its an excellent representation of how a patients personal relationships can help to shine through the 'fog' of mental illness. "

Stella Strivens

28 October 2017 - 20:04:42
"This is a beautiful and poignant representation of mental health. The striking colour difference emphasises the powerful role that family and relationships has on the achromatic and, potentially, over medicated portrayal of mental health. "

Matt Dowthwaite

04 November 2018 - 22:12:39
"This striking image conveys the psychological impact that a disease can have on a patient. Here, the use of colour further demonstrates the importance of family during illness, in this case, the duty of a father to his children. This thought helps him to carry on through his depression."

Aodhan Griffin Barr

04 November 2018 - 22:12:39
"There is a striking contrast between the pills filling the foreground and the toy car at the back of the shot which is bright but both out of focus and out of reach. This is an amazing represents how mental health can cloud someone's view and prevent them from seeing the positive and uplifting elements of their lives - even when from an outside perspective these positives are easy to see. The mixture of pills suggests the blurring of lines between medication for the bowel cancer and his own self medication for the secondary psychological impacts of the illness which often aren't properly considered."